Fitness Extravaganza!

So, my apologies for the maddd delay in posting My fitness update.
As I stated last post I would be starting new....FITNESS!
I wrote that post from Colorado, and I didn't have my computer, therefore...no pictures...and whats a fitness post without result photos....its SHIT! lol.
It took me a few to get them all to my computer from my Facebook and Instagram.
Most of my progress can be seen there.

To my best of my abilities, I will keep the photos in order. NO promises.
This will be a MASS photo update, due to the fact its 4 months worth of fitness progress pictures....since I hopped on the blog fit train epically late. Its judgeable. LOL.

So. Hello Fatty. Ok no im not a hippo....but I was unhappy. So...I fucking did something about it! 

I began my journey Feb 18th, 2013. Best decision of my life. 

One of my very first pictures post work out...Check out the chubby face. (:

about 3 weeks into working out....

I bought myself this watch to track my progress! I love knowing how much I'm burning! 

Clearly...the workout kicked my ass! 

Gym Sesh! I go hard, and never quit! From spin classes, to swimming, Cardio is a beautiful thing!

This watch completes my fitlife! Idk what fitlife was before it! 

1 month of working out. TOTALS! yes!!!!!!

I know, you were thinking, okay Im sick of your face and watch. Show me progress. 

It doesn't come over night, It takes months. On this day around 3 months or so in....I felt SKINNY!

So I snapped some photos....and I look great! Dedicated. YES! 

More polarwatch Totals. 1000+ calories, in 1 day! 

If your not sweating....Your not working! (: 

12 Laps = 3 miles. 

3 miles of intense intervals.! 

Eliptical.....ya don't say!

 So I wont fake it and say I didn't get a little help from itWorks fit wraps. 

No im not a cheater, but I am a mother, with excess flubber around my midriff. 

Top = post first wrap. 

Bottom= post 9th wrap. I'd say the shit works. 

(Soon to be a dristibuter starting early july. BE PREPARED!) 

I love itWorks!

 FUCK YES! That is a sexy flat tummy for yall.  (:

I was super skinny while in Colorado. 

This is only 2 weeks ago guys! 

PROGRESS!

4 months of fitness!

Getting my skinny on while on vacation. 

Seriously....I dont quit. Go has hard as possible, every time!

 And this my friends....was from today. 

June 19 (its 1am on the 20th now) 

 I put in 3.5 miles = my cool down. a total of around 4 miles. 

This was one of my best run, based on the fact I didnt stop, and didnt hurt, but felt AMAZING the entire run.

 And finally....dun dun dun......

WORKING OUT AND EATING HEALTHY PAYS OFF!

Left: was 1 year ago

Right: is recent of course! 

One would say Im pretty much obsessed with my progress. 

Wouldn't you be too!

last summer...I weighed in at 247lbs. 

GROSSSSSS!!!!!

Today I weigh in at around 205lbs. 

Yes....

205lbs

(:

My goal weight however is 170. 

Im not entirely sure I can get there, given I have a lot of muscle....

But thats what I am aiming for. 

As soon as I hit that, It'll be all about maintaining, toning and tightening. 

Im excited for my future. 

I hope to inspire folks. 

Im not a magnificent weight loss story....

however, I had a story...

I've shared it, 

And I will continue to do so. 

Never give up, Never quit. 

You're just one work out away from being happy. 

xoxox!!

Starting over...Completely Fresh.

Wow!

So I haven't blogged in months!!! Did you miss me?

Of course you did!!! Deep down inside you really really did. (:

Anyhow.....I'm changing my blog around.

I dedicated my life to health and fitness about 4 months ago.
Its been one hell of a journey. I've struggled with my confidence, weight and looks for around 3 years now. At least...that's when I noticed I had fattened up.
Prior to my weight gain, I was actually incredibly thin. Maxing out at about 5'10 180 lbs of muscle.  I was fit, and damn sexy butt ass naked.

So....I decided I would take you allll the way back....to the beginning, to update you on how i got to where i am now.

Heres my story. Ill try to keep it as short as possible.



All my life I've been very athletic. Since age 6. Sports all year long, every year, through high school. I was very physically fit and thin. During my junior year, at age 17  i tore my acl playing high school soccer. DEVASTATING!!! It was truely horrific. Life as I knew it was over. 6 month recovery period. No physical activity....lots of junk food. I gained 40 lbs. That put me at around 180lbs. As a junior that sucked balls. Eventually I recovered and was back for my senior year of soccer. I was never 100% again. I was babied that year. ..never allowed to play to my full potential, but even so, a jr college coach wanted me....but my love for soccer died my senior year. At 18 that was the first year of no sports. It was harder then I imagined....so that spring (freshmen year), I trained for my soph yr of college....hurt my knee again....had surgery....recovered in 2 months. Also....during this time....my boyfriend of 3 years dumped me. Really guy....really....so heart broken, and crippled....I pushed myself harder then I ever had. I didn't eat, I just ran. And ran.....and ran. I then tried out for the team the summer prior to sophomore year....because I was injured still and couldn't have physical contact....I didn't make it. It broke my heart. ...but I understood. That was the end of my soccer career. So...I decided id just run....A LOT. From age 19 to 23 I ran almost everyday. Stairs at the stadium.....miles and miles. I was confident, in shape, and hot. Eventually I met my current husband online. We had a lot of drama....running began to stop. I began to gain weight again. I wasn't happy with that...but I also wasn't driven anymore. I stopped caring about my looks, but on the inside I was dying....at 24  decided to stop with the self pitying....and train again....BAM! PREGNANT. Fitness was put on hold again....and I gained....and gained....and gained weight. In reality....I only gained 22 lbs. Lol. But I went from 225 to 247 post baby. I hated being 225.....so being 247 made me a whale when I wanted to weigh 170. I said my entire pregnancy, as soon as I got released, I was going crazy with fitness....6 weeks post baby...I tried one sit up cried and quit. Never tried again....not until 6 months post baby....I tried....but it was too much for me....so I quit. Life kept going....I joined my husband in Colorado Oct of last year. At that point i was 230ish lbs. But i still hated how I looked. I was miserable, depressed, and felt hideous, and untouchable....that along with other things tore us apart. So in dec...I went back to cali to live with my mom and start new. I got a job, and purchased a gym memebership....that's where my journey begins.

In following posts....I will post past experiences until I'm current. Prepare yourselves. My journey has only begun.

XoxoX

ERmaGerdd I have a 1 year old!

2 weeks ago my mini me turned 1! 

See how amazing I am at updating! lol

I'd Write some super amazing sappy post for her...but Im seriously to fucking lazy to do that shit. So I'll put up a few pictures, and let you ooh an ahhh over how le gorgeous her tiny butt is!

Readyy....

set....

GO!!

Okay...enough Ohh's and Ahh's lol

We had a blast with family. A small sort of thing. No real theme. Like I said, SETBACKS, So I couldnt give her the huge and amazing birthday with a million little kids running around party she deserves...

Probably NOT a bad thing though.... 

Was perfect for us. 

Hope you enjoyed this amazing post, because anything with my mini me in it is AMAZING! (:

xoxox!!

What, An Update??

Well, Shit fuckers....

It's been awhile since I've blogged. I could possibly be the shittiest blogger on earth.

Or possibly Im the most uninteresting person on this planet....

But Ill go with the first option. :p

Life in Paradise, isn't what I'd call paradise.

I feel isolated and alone up here in northern cali. But I'll live. At least I have some family out here, not that I see much of them, besides my mum n pa who I live with. YES I SAID MUM AND PA, because ITS FUCKING LEGIT! lol.

Don't judge me for living with my folks at 26. Most would think I was complete LOSER for this, but fuck those who think that. Shit happens in life, set backs fucking happen. So for now, I'm here and they are supporting me till I figure my fucking life out.

Im looking for work, because I'm no lazy bitch. I may be working at KRISPY KREMES, on some boss shit, And in the future, I do plan to head on back to school, to get my masters/PhD In physical therapy. Yup I said it!

PhD bitches! Its gonna take a long as time to get that degree, but I have a strong interest in it, and It'd help support my family.

My current situation with the hubs, is well...Shit IDFK. If I did I'd tell ya. I love that man with all my insides and outsides, but Im in california for a reason. Hopefully that shit will work itself out, and I'll be back in Colorado, living the life I dreamed of with my WHOLE family. But Imma let shit run the course it's supposed to for now. God has a plan for me. (:

ANY FUCKING WAYS....

This shit is long as fuck. But I got a collage of pictures for you hookers.

1. Christmas Karaoke. 

2. Way to much fun at the park!

3. Dressed to impress. Going to Visit Santa!

4,5,8. First snow in Colorado. (:

6. 11 month Picture! Playground.

7. Christmas, With her cool new pink truck!

9. Trying to unwrap presents under our christmas tree. 

10. A beautiful Little Princess on Christmas. 

Welp There's my extravagant Update! I'll be back Friday for my tiny ones 1st Birthday! (:

xoxox!!

Long Over Due - It's Okay Thursday

It's been way to long since I've shared what's okay in my life. 

So here GOES...

Its OKAY....

...To sit around all day in sweats like the bum that I am

...To not make new years resolutions, cause I make goals all throughout the year

...To have mixed up feelings cause your life is shit

...To chop off half of your hair and run around singing Alicia Keys-Brand New Me

...To wake up at 10am, because you and your baby are sick, and she doesn't go to sleep till 12am now

...To not talk to your friends much anymore cause they just don't get your personal drama

...To tell yourself everyday your going to start working out, only to sit on the couch veggin out 

And finally...

...Its okay to Be yourself, A brand new kind of you. (:

Missed you hookers!

xoxox!!

Paradise Ca

I'd be jealous if I were you.

Just listen to the name.

PARADISE.

hahaha.

No it's not a damn beach with palm trees, and a fold up chair with umbrella with Coronas. LOL

It's a small town, full of old people and hicks, but Its where my momma and papa are so it's here I am starting fresh.

I am very hopefully, and excited to be getting this new fresh start.

I am blessed and so very thankful, to be given this chance to get myself together, and have a little bit of help from the parental units.

They adore my baby girl, and are beyond excited to get to hang out and play with her. I am excited for them as well.

I am looking forward to the future. Working, making monies, saving, and doing big things, gaining self confidence, and getting fit. You do not even understand!

I will admit, I miss my hubby like crazy! It is so hard to walk away for awhile to better yourself. And I know that all sounds horrible, but I seriously could not get a grip while I was there. I was going under. But i do love my hubby with ll my heart, and after this time is up, Im going to be back with him, and we will live happily ever after. hahahaha.

Thats my amazeball update! Pray for me lovers!

xoxox!!

On My Way To a Fresh New Start.

Its been awhile since I've made a post. 

):

I know super slacking. 

So....A lot has happened in such a short amount of time. 

I suppose I'll fill ya'll in. 

Well, my birthday was lousy, as to be expected. I absolutely HATE my birthday, I haven't enjoyed it in forever. So WAMP!

It pisses me off that I always have the teensiest bit of hope that on my birthday I might actually feel special....When I know I wont. So I don't know why I have that little bit of hope. Im an idiot. LOL. 

MOVING ON....

A major event happened in my life the day after my birthday. Its not like an epic event, but was a real eye opener, and with this eye opener, The hubby and I have decided we will part ways for a bit. 

I have a lot of shit I've got to work out, as does he. But for me, I need to work on finding myself again. I really lost my way over the past few years. Not a good look. 

So I am looking towards a positive ending. 

I am going to go back to cali for a bit, work on myself, get a job, save up money, and work out. I am excited because for me, its a fresh start to a new chapter in our lives. We lost the connection that we desire to have, and because I have fallen so for into a pit of self loathing and depression, The only way I can think of to pull myself out, is to go away for a bit. 

No our marriage isn't over. We're gonna work together, while apart for little awhile. Get our feet back on the ground. 

Probably a lot of you are like WHAT THE SHIT how does that work. Well don't fucking judge me. I got this shit. Im full blown dedicated/faithful to my husband. I just need a chance to get my back on my feet. Its' complicated. 

Out here in Colorado I feel trapped as a stay at home mom, though I am craving work. Its just not that simple to pick up and work when you have a small child, and tooo many bills for your own health. The fact that when Im in cali, I can work and have a trusted babysitter AKA grandma, I can not only save money on a baby sitter, but I can feel my daughter is in safe good hands. She is to small to tell me if anything bad happened at "daycare" therefore I do not trust it, also Colorado is a shitty place for kids. NOTHING BUT CHILD MOLESTATION AND CHILD ABDUCTIONS IN THIS BITCH. Not to mention I recently read about a 3 MONTH old, who died at daycare because she was face down on the floor and none of the damn workers payed any attention. ITS THAT SHIT RIGHT THERE that fucks me up as a mother. UGH!

So because I can save, and find a transferable job, so when I do return to Colorado, we will have a better foundation for our marriage, and parenting, but also, we may be more financially stable. Alll which makes me more happy and confident as a women, mother, and wife. 

So I will continue to stay positive about whats to come with myself and my marriage. Gonna do nothing but send out positive vibes, that this will work out for the better! (:

And because I am a sexy bitch, I will leave you with this. (: 

xoxox!!