As most of you know, I moved back to Colorado in January. Used every last penny I had to make this move possible, I wanted my daughter to have her dad. I dreamed of a family for us.
I had to learn the hard way,
That what this is, isn't love.
What this is, isn't a family.
So I had to make the toughest decision of my life, and that is to walk away from my marriage. I put not only my heart on the line, but my daughters as well. No body expects to have their life come crashing down, their marriage to fall apart, and to be hundreds of miles from their safe place.
I sit here in tears as I type, because I always like to think I am a tough chick, and I can handle anything, I can deal with anything, and then....I look into my tiny daughters eyes, and BREAK because SHE deserves so much more, and I feel like I am failing her. And I believe that feeling, is worse then having some guy break your heart.
With all this said,
I need help. I'm states away from my family back in California, and people who give us unconditional love and support. I am scared, and very much alone, just me and my daughter. I NEED HELP TO GET HOME! I need help with a truck, gas money, and hotel money for my daughter and I. We need to leave, and we need to go fast. The longer we are here, the more depressed I become, and It becomes so much harder to be a mother, when you don't want her to see you cry, and hurt.
Its so hard for me to ask for help, I hate to do it, but this is for my daughter and I and I have to put my pride aside for once, Below is a link for donations to help my daughter and I get away from a bad negative unhappy life, and on the road to a better, loving, and happy life. Any little bit helps.
Thank you everyone for supporting me in my decisions, and the amazing amount of strength and encouragement you have given me.